https://cozywild.org/deeply-rooted-creative-heart daily 0.75 2018-01-17 https://static1.squarespace.com/static/59762fe8d2b85704bb60378a/t/5977395437c5810a23f069d6/1500985808570/Screen+Shot+2017-07-25+at+4.54.10+AM.png Deep Roots + Wild Heart https://cozywild.org/deeply-rooted-creative-heart/2017/7/25/now-is-the-time monthly 0.5 2017-07-25 https://static1.squarespace.com/static/59762fe8d2b85704bb60378a/t/597732e71e5b6c546cf49cca/1500984046675/ Deep Roots + Wild Heart - Now is the Time https://cozywild.org/deeply-rooted-creative-heart/2018/1/17/xh3bfxbbp1y6hsevq0ta8p5erif5g9 monthly 0.5 2018-01-17 https://static1.squarespace.com/static/59762fe8d2b85704bb60378a/t/5a5f6137ec212d226982c12c/1516200254116/img_6765.jpg Deep Roots + Wild Heart - Soul Mapping This is the map to your soul. It’s how you relate to it and build connection. You do this by befriending your soul and allowing it to guide you. Befriend your soul first by listening and allowing it to be with you. Then begin to talk to your soul. Ask it questions. Express your love and care for it. Ask it to show you it’s dark, raw parts. See these not as bad but as tender, wounded, scared, sad pieces- love them. Be gentle, cradle them. Honor your soul through ritual. Cherish it. Trust it. People come to me for maps because they have lost their inner compass- sense of direction, connection. They feel lost and sad and scared. I teach them to relate to their soul again and learn to listen and cultivate self love. I am a a map maker because I have found my way from tetherlessness to deep connection with my soul and the earth time and time again. I listen see and feel deeply...I allow and trust my soul to move through me to others until others can listen to their own. https://cozywild.org/deeply-rooted-creative-heart/2018/1/17/1e6fj27ksfxrirkse5nww4lyy5t0ej monthly 0.5 2018-01-17 https://static1.squarespace.com/static/59762fe8d2b85704bb60378a/t/5a5f61b50852299cf3fcef5f/1516200415582/tumblr_static_4o59plqbvy4gcowo4osscw80o.jpg Deep Roots + Wild Heart - The Journey My life lately has been about finding glitter in the darkness. It’s the bubbles in champagne at midnight. It’s the flight of a feather to the earth, lilting and swirling all the way. It’s been about resting in the small, quiet moments in the storm. Other times, it’s been about staying afloat in an ocean of uncertainty. And in still others, it has been about allowing myself to sink to the sea floor. Mostly, it’s been about learning to be where I am and to slow down and listen to the messages that my soul has been sending. I am coming to terms with the fact that I am a stops and starts kind of person. I am creative chaos and intense emotion and my whole heart and dirty hands in the mud of life kind of woman. I am also full of fear, and self-criticism for these very reasons. My life exists in extremes, and I am trying to live in the space between so that I can be quiet enough to really hear. Last year I found friendship in the image of whale. She came to me in meditations and dreams and she used her intuition to navigate by starlight and her sonar to send messages to the depths and listen for replies. She told me to follow the stars, and trust my voice. I became the navigator. Later, I was visited by a vision of a past life as a map-maker. I watched as I drew with light on the earth, a guide back to soul. As my life became filled with themes of maps and navigation and direction and inner compass, I felt more and more lost. I could not make myself fit into the mold of therapist and graduate student and so I tried to break out of both. In doing so, I broke down and fell through my psyche’s rickety floor and found myself swimming in the ocean of the unconscious. Lost, lost, lost. I spent a long time trying to find my way out. Begging and pleading with psyche to give me a sign to help guide my way. I fought against currents and was swept up in rip tides and covered in oil slicks. I was exhausted and angry and determined to be somewhere different than where I was. And then one day I noticed that if I stopped swimming, I could float. And I could allow the ocean to hold me and I could trust that it was taking me to where I needed to go. Some days I would forget, and would find myself sinking and spluttering again. The word trust rose in me like a heartbeat – trust trust trust. I remembered a line from a poem by Hafiz: “The place where you are now, God has circled on a map for you.” Maybe my job is not to make the map or to be the compass, but to let myself be moved and guided by psyche. It’s a practice – the practice of staying in the in-between and being comfortable with the mystery. Comfort with the mystery does not mean the journey is comfortable – it means I am willing to take it. So in my willingness, there are moments where I see the glitter and the champagne bubbles and enjoy my descent. There are also moments when I would rather be anywhere else, and my heart hurts and my body aches from fighting to both be somewhere different and also be where I am. I’m living the definition of heart all in and hands muddy. I am allowing myself to be in the chaos. I am trying to be compassionate toward myself around the stops and starts on the journey. I want to say that I am finding my way back to myself, or my sense of direction, but I know that even that statement is me trying to place myself on a map that doesn’t exist. It doesn’t exist because I am creating it with every step I take. Joseph Campbell said “If you can see your path laid out in front of you step by step, you know it's not your path. Your own path you make with every step you take. That's why it's your path.” In that way, I suppose I am a map maker. And in every shaky, uncertain step, I am creating myself and my life and my story. I am transforming my dirt into gold. I am loving myself conscious and loving myself whole. I am living alchemy and individuating and traversing an inner wilderness. So much could be broken down and delved into around those processes but for now, I want to just hold it all as it is, inside me. It amazes me that all of this exists in me. An entire universe, within as it is without. May I continue spelunking with curiosity and compassion, and sharing it with others. Amen. https://cozywild.org/deeply-rooted-creative-heart/2018/1/17/7mdi4zc1x70yv1sopjbbnc7zoe1y4y monthly 0.5 2018-01-17 https://static1.squarespace.com/static/59762fe8d2b85704bb60378a/t/5a5f6211419202a037ed7242/1516200492490/tumblr_o2jnyvwar71v1xqsro2_1280.jpg Deep Roots + Wild Heart - Belonging I hold my own face in my hands. I am all of my selves at once: womb me and baby me and little girl me and teenage me and college me. I am me in the bath tub at six and me sobbing on the floor at 24, and me mothering at 36 and gardening at 47 and a grandma at 55. I am me at 63 going for walks in the woods and me at 72 enjoying the warmth of my family around me. I hold my own face in my hands and I tell myself that I deserve to be here. That I chose this life and in all its beauty and hardness I deserve to be here and I am stronger for it. I tell myself that I am a gift to the world and that there is no one else who can be me. 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